You know what I realized about living alone? My decision paralysis is getting worse. Like a lot worse. I can’t think. I have too much time but at the same time not enough time. It’s not like when I was at school where at least I can focus all my priorities on schoolwork. I can’t finish a single task without a crap ton of backtracking and interrupting. 

I can’t even throw away a piece of plastic packaging into the trashcan without hesitating a bunch and running through a logic tree in my head. The trashcan is almost full and this is too large to fit, so I should take the trash out first. But I haven’t done the dishes yet, and I might still need to throw away bits of foodstuff. So I need to first do the dishes. But it would be a better use of my time to start laundry first so that will be running in the background as I do dishes. But my laundry card is out of funds so I need to fill it up first using this stupid app that all our laundry machines use. But I put my phone on airplane mode to charge and I said I wasn’t going to touch my phone until after I finished my other chores. And then I get distracted checking my notifications when I open my phone. And so on and so on. I’m just unable to focus on one thing. I have to physically force myself to do one thing and one thing only. One time I had a stick of soap in my hand for ten minutes straight because I was going to put it back in the bathroom. I ended up getting distracted that entire time doing other things and just left the soap in my hand instead of walking a few feet into the bathroom to set it down.